Six – Seven
Go to hell or go to heaven
The number most like Hell
Is twelve
The number most like Heaven
Is seven-
Now why should Hell
Be more than seven?
Why should Heaven
Be less than twelve?
Some would say
Heaven is not Like seven
Rather like eleven
And that Hell Is twelve,
Because Heaven
Did come first
Twelve does follow
Thin eleven
To this I say
Heaven and Hell
Seven and Twelve
Eleven and Twelve
Does it matter?
Listen well and you will hear
The root of evil
Is right here
It lies it numbers,
It lies in facts
It lies in visions
Hides in cracks
Heaven Hell
Sheaven Helve
Show and Tell
Which is the number
Wh
I live to tell the tale-
I stand again in bloodied victory,
War-cry ringing clear unto the winter sky
Wounds forgotten
The pain of them
Driven away by a heady vintage
Known to some as winning-
My foe lies crushed beneath me
The sun bows low to the horizon
The moon looks on,
Pale in awe!
Awake
Aware
Alive
I stand as all that is man
Mortal
God!
I am all of these and more
In this very moment
I have beaten another day,
I stand as this day breathes its last
Though it was a winning battle-
Still it took a day of my life from me...
Do you know what hides in the shadows
Do you know what lurks in the dark
What's slipping up behind you-
Hungry and swift
What's behind that door
That's rattling off it's hinges
Do you know?
I do
Who's that in the window!
Too late
They're gone
No doubt they'll be inside
Soon enough
After all-
A window
That shield you
Hide so comfortably behind
Is only glass...
Don't turn your back to hungry eyes...
Do you know what it's like
To wake up from a nightmare
Sweating and yelling
Thrashing in horror
At nothing at all?
Well,
Nothing has been hunting you all night,
Friend
Try to wake up from this one-
Quickly!
Before your
A Blind Request;
Open your eyes
Dear reader,
Please do take in all the colors
All the sights around you
Whatever the moment
Has to offer-
The angle of sunlight
The whisper of moonlight
That haze of cloud or fog
The bright blue of the sky,
All that exists in your eyes-
Glittering gems!
What light they shine with-
What a wonder that sight must be!
Open your eyes
Be they misty or clear-
Blue or brown or green,
Open them for me
Dear reader,
Let them drink in the world
As if they had never
Seen it before-
Now tell me
What do you see?
I am but empty paper
Though I have not eyes
Or ears
With which to see your sight,
No
I remember being a child,
I used to look at flowers
In all their brilliant colors,
Each on unique and beautiful
With a scent to match-
I used to laugh and play
I lived for playground games,
For fun, to waste time-
I used to love all women
What wonderful things they seemed,
Each one a work of art
Sculpted, a master craft-
I used to value every touch
Every scent,
Every little thing-
So long ago it seems,
That sweet forgotten youth
No more to return-
Now all the flowers,
Their beautiful scents
I can't look at them anymore
My hands would kill them
As they are-
I don't laugh,
Or play
Laughter kills
And I have no time f
Doubts
Little thoughts
They plague me
Insectile rubbings on my mind
Many legged bodies
Crawling on my brain
Refusing to be squashed
By the thrashing of my thoughts
I don't know what to think
They've taken that resolve
From me
By their lacy wings
And hidden it away
Beyond where I can find it
Though I swat them one by one
These winged doubts remain
As a fog of hungry gnats
Drawn to a bloodied corpse
They are drawn to my open mind
Where they've lain their seeds down deep
In the folds of my pink brain
Where I cannot dig them out
Doubts, how they itch upon the mind!
I cannot think
With them in there
And without thinking,
It all happened at lake Tahoe one summer in the recent past, on a late night walk with a good friend. The dreaded question finally came to light, there was no choice but to answer;
"Are you religious?"
"Depends on how you mean."
"You know I'm a Christian, but I don't know what you are."
"I'm not religious in the way you mean, I believe in very little."
"Why?"
"I've seen too much to be anything but a cynic, all the belief systems I've been approached by ask me to stop questioning, to trust in the answers they've been given by someone else. To have faith that they are right."
"Wha
Here I stand,
A crystal curtain
Washing over my shoulders and chest
The night's misdeeds dripping from my body
A waterfall of sins-
Awash in silken, liquid memories
Written in water-blessed skin
They left - they're gone
But their voices echo yet
In the halls, outside on the deck,
And the walls are thick
With their newborn dreams
They who sinned and sat beside me
Have left their mark upon this house
The kiss of laughter
The touch of sleeping bodies
The feel of nighttime fantasies,
This is now hallowed ground
Consecrated and blessed
With memories of them
These walls will not forget them
And as I stand,
Sins washing, flowin
I have felt
The poisoned blade
As it drove
Into the marrow of my spine
Where my betrayer's eyes
Had burrowed deep
Betrayal!
The bitter sound
Of my last day
Treachery!
The dark blade lay in waiting
Hidden well in sleep
Until the day it wakened
And to my lover's hand did it creep
Betrayal!
Three black poisons
Mar that knife
With three wicked venoms
Am I unmade
Treachery!
The hilt, dark hot anger
The blade, Searing pain
The dagger-point, aching regret
It's stain, bitter memories
Betrayal!
I loved those hands so much
They held my heart
So gently
Treachery!
That heart is now pierced through
Cut apart
Split in two
Fear me for I have the
Killer's
Blood flowing in my
Veins
My blackened heart no longer
Cares
And my tears are drawn of
Blood
Run from me my
Crying prey-
For I am only human as the
Blood
Spilt on the ground
You have as long to live as
You knew you had before
But now you know that it is
All
And soon it will be
Gone
So now you miss the
Time
You wasted then
My bloodied hands now come for
You
And will *not* turn aside-
Forgive me though I
Will not ask for such from
Prey
I am the Hunter
I am hungry
Tremble as I come for
you...
Sadly Happiness goes
--Please my love,
Before we wake
Tell me now your name
For I would know of who it is
Who holds me in my dreams
++No, my dearest
I cannot
When you wake you will forget
All that I once was
And then again you'll dream of me
And it will be much better
Since you don't remember
That it happened already, before
--But then it may have happened often
How often have I seen you?
I should know your face by now
For dreamlands are so vivid
I would know you anywhere
++A sad smile I give to you
You know not the way of dreams
Dreams are lovely brittle things
That dangle by a thread
If you were to know me
You would
In My dreams
As twilight falls
I find you there
Your smiling face
Your shining hair,
I hold you close,
Within my arms
I feel your heart,
Next to mine
I steal your breath
With a gentle kiss...
I'm with you now
In the twilight bliss....
Z
The end of all things
Great and small
Comes after their beginning
But who is to say
They can't start over,
Begin and end again?
They remember well beginning,
And forget always the end,
Womb to tomb
Bed to grave
As if they've never been
Their mark is here,
O yes my dear
It flutters in the wind
But catch it and it won't stop
It will take you to your end
The minds of all
Who lived and died
Begin and end again
As they should
They start and stop
And start all over again.
How can this be?
You say to me, I tell you:
In the wind
The winds of change are ever there
An thus they never change
And all who lived are never he
Forget
Remember all the fun times,
We had together?
Don't.
Remember all the laughter?
All the tears?
Don't.
Remember when
We ran under the stars,
Played tag under the moon?
Forget,
There's no good
In a broken memory
And if memories could kill,
Ours would take us both.
Maybe then we could remember
But not now,
Remember me? As I was then?
And you?
Forget that too,
We'll never have that again,
And the memory,
Simply makes us want to.
Remember the past?
The bright light of our youth?
The happy cries,
The love-struck moments,
Watermelon on the beach?
Forget it all,
I beg of you
Because if you forget,
Maybe I can to
Oh corpse!
Speak to me now
Tell me of thy life
And also tell me of thy death
Both now hold you fast-
Though neither now remains
They are dead as you
Buried in the ground
You lived just as you died
Once
And never again
Only once
Did your flesh walk the Earth
Did your mind count the days
Until you would get somewhere
You've finished counting
Is this what you expected?
A castle of damp earth?
A crown of rough-hewn stone?
It bears your name at least-
Few things can claim that now
You were just a man,
Who went to sleep one day
And found himself down deep
A box under the clay
They mourned you-
Oh how they cried!
Tears fo
Mist
I stand on the pinnacle of mankind's evolution
A lonely, shadowed hill
Shadowed, and coated in fog
The Question comes readily to my lips
Without thought of failure or consequence
"Show me"
I ask that swirling mist-
That twisting wall of white and gray
The wind whistles past me, as if in anger at my demand
"Show me what lies beyond, show me what is yet to come"
I ask the mist once more
Unwilling to give up without an answer
But the mist remains unyielding
It will not tell
What secrets lie within
"Show me what I do not know"
I ask one final time
Refusing yet
To give up and walk away
From the faceless mist that stared me
She is.. Pretty
In a very strange way
Beautiful even
I've known her forever,
or
As long as I can remember
An old friend,
And more
We were married once
Beside the sandbox,
Maid of honor,
Best man,
Priest and all-
She walked up the aisle
With her dandelion bouquet,
And her dirt stained blue jeans,
We held hands while the priest-
In his filthy, dirt-covered tee shirt-
Pronounced us man and wife
Over a copy of the three little pigs,
And that was that,
We kissed on the deal,
Because, after all
That's what grownups do
She taught me how
We kissed a lot after that,
But I still remember
That very first one,
I don't rememb
Friend,
You are lost at sea
Your paddle gone
Direction wrong
Blanketed in brine,
I am the lighthouse
The opal tower
The star who points the way
Follow my light
My flaring beacon
To find your home again,
I am the shore
Hear me stand
Astride the raging sea
Its mighty breathe
Breaking on my sandy flesh
Follow its voice
Its rising, falling cadence
To where I block its path
Follow, And you will find
A sandy path to the fireside,
I am the sea
That pushes you ashore
I am the air
That fills your aching lungs
I am the mountain
That leads you to the sky
I am the falcon
That carves a trail in the clouds
Follow,
I will lead
"And on the pedestal these words appear:
'My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings:
Look on my words, ye Mighty, and despair!'
Nothing beside remains. Round the decay
Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare
The lone and level sands stretch far away."
—Shelley, Ozymandias
[i]
The heat and sand is reckless with it's love (or lust, or desire
Is there a difference?)
[ii]
And on the second day there was nothing but dry and crumbling tongue (desmenuce)
Inside his mouth, so that the storm in turn turn turning, went unnoticed
Until it swallowed all the loamed beasts and
Caged lions.
In the desert, there is deepened thirst—and i
eighteen years
of many laughs
and thankfully
less tears
brings me here
and im convinced that you spend
your whole childhood
getting there
trying so hard
to make it to the point
where youre responsible for yourself
where you make your own decisions
where youre presumably free
and you spend the whole rest of your life
trying to find a way out
but theres never a way out
forever confined
in all the decisions youve ever made
all of the promises you never kept
all of the the regrets
all of the faces youve ever turned away from
all of the faces who have ever turned away from you
constantly questioning
what is there to do
wit
Sadly Happiness goes
--Please my love,
Before we wake
Tell me now your name
For I would know of who it is
Who holds me in my dreams
++No, my dearest
I cannot
When you wake you will forget
All that I once was
And then again you'll dream of me
And it will be much better
Since you don't remember
That it happened already, before
--But then it may have happened often
How often have I seen you?
I should know your face by now
For dreamlands are so vivid
I would know you anywhere
++A sad smile I give to you
You know not the way of dreams
Dreams are lovely brittle things
That dangle by a thread
If you were to know me
You would
Current Residence: Trees... Favourite genre of music: Whatever you call that Favourite photographer: My dear old dad Operating System: Ubuntu Wallpaper of choice: Triumph Favourite cartoon character: Raphael Personal Quote: Now and Ever I am I and all that I am worth
Last day of spring break, it's 10:30 and I'm about to go to bed. Crazy! Me going to bed before midnight and planning to wake up before 10.
Tomorrow morning is going to suck.
Oh well.
I must appologize for going so very long without being on here right after I said I would be on more, that was a bit strange. But now I do actually plan to be on much more often, maybe it'll even make me write more.
Thanks a lot you guys for still reading my stuff even after being gone for months on end. Talk to you soon I'm sure.
-Noah
Thanks everyone for wishing me luck in college, it's all payed off beautifully, I have had a wonderful time. And the best part? I'm only half-way through my first year; cheers to three more!
But however much I have fun here. There's a lot important to me on DeviantArt too - don't ever let me leave for good. I'm sorry it's taken me so long to get back here as it is.
Here's to you all! I am in your ddebt.
I was lost - but now am found.
Home sweet home away from home (if that makes any sense.) I've just gotten to college after surviving 5 days of the cushiest hiking trip in history.
had a couple classes, lots of meals and frisbee games and some million people whose names I have forgotten.
This is confusing Buuuut
I AM HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE!!
Ja Mata! (see you later)
Ah, erm... how to will somebody a good time on a pagan holiday of feasting, drinking and hot, crazy, monkey sex while all they can do is give and recieve presents in the name of a 'holy' Messiah...
...Well shit, we all can't live in the past, can we?
Regardless! Merry Christmas, hun. And a hangover free New Year.
NOAH!!!
hmpf. i miss ya dammit! Sorry. i just read all your poems... well, the ones you have posted, i will be reading all the poems you gave me when i get home... every one of them i tell you! the earlier ones bring back happy memories.. *sigh* i hate getting teary eyed... punk. i love you and i miss you!